It's really a unique moment to see history happen. Like, as a child, you don't think about it, but it changes you.

I had that moment. When the Seahawks won Super Bowl 48 they made a fan for life. I thought Russell Wilson would retire a Seahawk.

Granted, I was just a stupid kid, I didn't know how free agency and trades worked. So why is it that when i'm older now,

seeing Russell Wilson in the uniform of the very team his lone Super Bowl came against feels unreal? It's like a bad dream.

Maybe it's just karma. Not a lot of people notice this, but in the story of the Seahawks, it's the driving force.

Think to just a few years ago, Blair Walsh of the Vikings missing a chip shot field goal to give the Hawks a playoff win.

Then, Walsh becomes a Seahawk, and misses critical kicks that could have resulted in a playoff berth. It's fair, but

it feels the exact opposite. Maybe i feel the way i do because I saw it coming. Maybe everyone did, and we just ignored it.

Despite all my talk of the Seahawks, I'm also a fan of the LA (should-be-San-Diego) Chargers, in most part thanks to my uncle.

It's put my football watching for this season in a unique position. This year there will be:

--2 Chargers-Broncos games--

--The Broncos facing the Seahawks in Seattle--

--A Chargers-Seahawks matchup--

It feels weird. I feel like I can't watch those games, but I can't not see them either. It's a mistake.

I mean that literally, it all is. Pete Carroll should be the one leaving Seattle, not Wilson.

He is a coach far past his time still wishing for the days of the Legion of Boom and Beast Mode. But it's all over now.

His terrible playcalling which focuses on terrible running backs to establish a terrible running game. None of these people are Marshawn Lynch.

Chris Carson and Rashad Penny are usually too injured to play, Travis Homer and Deejay Dallas need more development, Alex Collins is passable as

a rb2 at least, and remember how Adrian Peterson showed up for like 1 game? That'll be a cool trivia factoid in 10 years.

We all knew this team was gonna rebuild in the middle of the decade, but why start now? There was still at least one year left, even just for

the sake of fans seeing the last members of that Superbowl team ride together. It just came too soon, we should have prepared.

Maybe the future will be different. I mean, every team sucks at one point. Even the Patriots. No matter what, I will watch Seahawks football.

At least it's not as painful as watching the Chargers, whose chokes and failings I have also become well acquainted with. Maybe one day,

I'll write about that. And no matter what happens, at least I'm not a Browns fan.